First of all, I think I’ve always misunderstood the definition of ambivalent too! Thanks for illuminating my misunderstanding. :-) Second, every single bit of this resonates. Thank you for naming the contradictions in a way that makes me feel more normal, and gives me permission to be the complex, often contradictory human that I am! Your writing is both accessible and brilliant. Keep going, Kate!!
I noticed the rug pulled back too, and I've spent way too much time wondering why! It had to be intentional, but I don't understand what it's doing. Does it not fit otherwise? Is it enhancing the sound in some way? Sooo unusual!
My guess is that he loves the rug (it's a souvenir from someplace special? something passed down from family?) but that it didn't fit in the room so this was the solution. I kinda love it!
First of all, I think I’ve always misunderstood the definition of ambivalent too! Thanks for illuminating my misunderstanding. :-) Second, every single bit of this resonates. Thank you for naming the contradictions in a way that makes me feel more normal, and gives me permission to be the complex, often contradictory human that I am! Your writing is both accessible and brilliant. Keep going, Kate!!
Thanks for the kind words, Jillian. I'm glad I'm not the only one who got "ambivalent" wrong for so long.
I noticed the rug pulled back too, and I've spent way too much time wondering why! It had to be intentional, but I don't understand what it's doing. Does it not fit otherwise? Is it enhancing the sound in some way? Sooo unusual!
My guess is that he loves the rug (it's a souvenir from someplace special? something passed down from family?) but that it didn't fit in the room so this was the solution. I kinda love it!